I am still here.
I don’t have a lot to say right now about some things. At least, not here anyway.
What I do have to say is the last 15 months have worn the wear on me. Even as I started with building this little website and wanted to build some sort of online presence, momentum shifted me away from the tinkering and more into the practical. More important things seemed to take their hold, and to me family is more important. I may not always show it or express it but I love my family. Being a single guy – this means family doesn’t live with me, but we talk and we are there for each other. I also have a group of close friends – and acquaintances and my work colleagues and friends. More than likely they probably won’t even read or see this post, but they do know I care.
Thank You friends and family.
As of this past January, I have lost both of my parents. We’ve cleared the house and it will be sold here shortly. I have few ties left to Macon.
In the midst of all of this – working full time, attending graduate school online, and everything else happening around us in the world – pandemics, masks, racial tensions, political upheaval. Where and when will it stop. It never will, but get out of my way because I am pushing through.
I did something this past year, something that I never would have thought possible, until I actually did it. I’ve all but eliminated a great chunk of debt. before I even saw a dime of any inheritance from the estate, by my own willpower and intention – and with the recommendations of my elder financial mentor – I have freed up a large some of my income. I sold a car I didn’t need. I stopped paying for services I didn’t need or would no longer need to have. I emptied out my storage, and purged, purged some more, and purged again. I’m eating better, cooking at home more. I’m starting to sleep better.
I don’t feel stuck. At the same time – I feel more restricted and pressured to do better. I need to do it for myself, my family and my friends. I need to get in some better physical shape. I have some limitations but I know what they are and when to apply them. The condition is never permanent. For better or worse, I am in control of my spending, my eating, what I do and who I spend my time with. Do I write a new blog post? Do I take a break from class or go full bore and finish my Masters degree next year? At work – do I choose path A, or B and/or C? I am blessed with some important options – do I sit still and wait – or do I push forward with intent and purpose. I’ll choose the latter and let the cards fall where they may.
What’s your story?